UNCENSORED CONFESSIONS - A WORLD OF MIRRORING DEEP CHILDHOOD WOUNDS

Angelica P.V. Home WORLD OF MIRRORS-Reflections copy.jpg

When ‘spiritual' teachers and ‘healers’ are not transparent about their own healing process—and I am not talking about PAST events—those are easy to share, a kind of ‘look at me now’ in your face that you too can do this. Which is fine, but the real authentic teachers share what they are going through now, knowing their life is a process of deep understanding beyond the wounded mind.

Knowing that one major breakthrough will led to another step into transformation, another opportunity to master what was desired to be learned and unconditionally loved this life-time. Healer and teachers that pretend their lives are now perfect, are dishonest. I don’t know anyone on the planet that is fully awakened and pure—even profound people like Mooji. There are still things he realizes and is learning before he transitions into an energy light being, but also knows he has much to share. Clue. When we want anything for ‘another’ on a deeper level we are only wanting it for ourselves.

You are not alone in your healing process; this entire planet is healing something. And everything you see outside yourself is your mirror and guide—take it seriously.

I was trained in many profound healing modalities, and I know I have mastered a tremoundous amount, but there are always finer levels to bring us what we truly want…HAPPINESS. I not only use them with my clients, but myself… continuously.

The Vital & Powerful Merging of Spirituality & Prosperity.

Holding Space For A Powerful New Workshop That Brings Clarity on the importance of Integrating Prosperity and Spirituality. They were designed to work together as one, but somehow those is power didn’t want us to believe we could have both. Not only do we not need to choose, but to do so, limits our Divine Potential. As You Expand, so does the Consciousness /God. You do not need to make a choice!

SELF ESTEEM & ENERGY VAMPIRES

Boy did I learn something important!!

I stopped coaching a few years ago (even through I loved it and had incredible results with t99% of my clients) because the energy of the 1% was so heavy and dark it seeped into my aura even when I was protecting myself with golden light and meditation.

What I realized as a Projector in Human Design, (20% of the population), being super sensitive beings--beyond any other type and that is how we can read the pulse of the planet, that I was jeopardizing my well-being for theirs.

My teacher reminded me of this yesterday. He said, "not only are you a Projector, you are an Intuitive Empath, and you have to stay away or go to the root of why you attract those clients that may be only 5% of your client base, but terribly destructive to your field because they are energy vampires leaving you depressed and wiped out. They feed on your light."

I decided it was time to do more in-depth inquiry into the early stages of life on earth, including a worksheet using Byron Katie’s 'The Work' and discovered that I believed "I" had to 'fix it for them" or 'rescue them’ and took on that responsibility. Just like I did as a child with my mom... and then both husbands, etc.

I am so clear now between being kind and responsible to myself, and thinking I can help those that only want to dump their crap on someone else and refuse to do their inner work. I can guide my clients and show them the way, but not help them --they have to do that themselves and be responsible for their transformation!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am now setting healthy boundaries and calling it as I see it in a clear but loving way.

By 'chance' in my car yesterday, Carolyn Myss's audio came on about Self Esteem and the need to be wanted, and fit in since childhood – I needed to hear that and say NO to toxic energy.

I am excited about coaching again, but now I will vet my clients and turn down those that are wanting someone else to do their work or blaming others. I now own the Miracle Scalar technology to assist in clearing their energy, and hopefully, I can share and sell more ‘Miracles iQubes’ to assist with their awakening, knowing 'it,' nor 'I' can fix them, only assist them.

How about you? Do certain people drain your life force, or are you clearly saying ‘NO’ to that energy in a kind and certain way?

We deserve to be respected, but we have to respect ourselves first!

Blessings and Love, have a fantastic, loivng and quilt free day!

CLIPPED WINGS - ARE YOU A PRISONER OF YOUR MIND?

You can’t fly if you allow your thoughts to clip your wings. I was thinking about this last night, playing small because ‘what people think?’ Sure the adult can say "that’s ridiculous what does it matter what other people think?," and even "I’m fearless" but the truth is many of us have childhood voices popping up that say “who do you think you are “ or don’t act so big “ or “you think you’re so special “—repetitive ridiculous comments spoken to a 4 or 5-year-old. If we had known better we would’ve thought, “Yep that’s me, pretty special “but instead it became shaming. Time to break out of prison, those patterns of the mind that keep us playing small. @valeryberky for the reminder in one of your posts I saw this morning. ❣️ "The greatest prison that many live in is the fear of what other people think"

Wow! it is a prison, and we think we are free! 

WANT TO BREAK THOSE PATTERNS?

YEARNING FOR THE PAST & THE GIFT OF LETTING IT GO!

I can now look at one of my homes and remember the peace and joy I felt every time I came to spend a few weeks here --I no longer feel the regret. And it brings me delight that #1.  I created something from nothing and made it beautiful. #2. I designed all the furniture and had it built.  #3. Great parties here! #4. Fantastic seclusions here!


I realized a while back that I had still been energetically connected to past losses. A life or things I once owned. When we wonder why the new and higher choices are not opening as quickly as we had hoped, we have to look at this question, "are you still holding onto what was?"

There is no room for a new reality to come into existence the way we envisioned. Why? Because your attention is divided, and the conscious or unconscious mind has weakened/broken the direct connection and power of who you are and what is attempting, sincerely striving, to open into your reality.

It is getting a mixed signal, so it just pauses... or crawls along. And waits. And waits. Until one day you can break the attachment to regret, loss, 'if only,' why?, unfair, and all the other reasons that keep the mind, not Soul, from reaching back to what no longer exists.
We must not live in the past to be empowered! We can remember our history and the lessons and joys of it, but not rewind and rewind what was only meant to be chapters of a vibrant and exciting journey, which only brings heartache when it should just convey gratitude for the experiences in the first place.

620676_10202332875740494_1073724695_o.jpg

I called it Casa Artista, and it was lovely to fly in, have my taxi pick up my fresh flowers from my favorite florist, put them in a vase and slide open the walls of glass. My peaceful haven. (unless a sometimes wild party just happened)  I finally let this one go, it took a long time because of the peace I felt here.Now I have many havens that feed my Soul!

Now when I see photos of some of my homes; ones I designed, decorated, were sanctuaries I loved, and have many fond memories of, I smile and think, 'wow, wasn't that fun to create those spaces and have so many great moments in that life!'
But that is just one chapter of the life I came to experience. The life I originated to learn and grow and expand because of this adventure. The life I could align with joy and grace, or pain and sadness, and each was an expression of the Souls desire to feel and experience.

Casa Bella was so different than designing for my 'serious clients' that wanted everything to match. It was fun and integrated ancient with new, light with dark, art and play with function... just fun coming back for months or weeks it always brought joy! (except for the divorce part of it--but what lessons I learned about myself!) And with all I loved inside, what I loved the most was my flowers!

Casa Bella was so different than designing for my 'serious clients' that wanted everything to match. It was fun and integrated ancient with new, light with dark, art and play with function... just fun coming back for months or weeks it always brought joy! (except for the divorce part of it--but what lessons I learned about myself!) And with all I loved inside, what I loved the most was my flowers!

So, thank yourself for the fantastic human that you are that has created whatever you have; love, heartache, suffering, joy, peace, stress, tragedy, illness, bliss. Each comes with gifts that we can pass on to others from the discoveries we make along the journey!

The most potent healers are the ones that went through the darkest times and realized the treasures within the experience.

Thank you for your contribution to the world!

Put all your enthusiasm, and appreciation into NOW and be the light you came to experience.

As for my life in letting go to regret, my whole Being feels more expansive every moment... it is all so exciting to discover this moment and what is unfolding!

May your day be blessed and your memories treasured --but let them go!

Angelica Yountville copy.jpg

PROJECTORS IN HUMAN DESIGN - IF IT'S NOT FUN WE 'CAN'T' DO IT! (I REPEAT, CANNOT DO ANYTHING THAT ISN'T FUN FOR LONG)

Projectors -We are the Creatives, the Seer's, those that 'penetrate' the 'other's' and know what is needed in the moment.

Projectors -We are the Creatives, the Seer's, those that 'penetrate' the 'other's' and know what is needed in the moment.

Today, I FINALLY GOT IT! WOW, That took me a very  l-o-n-g  time!
Something happened today and because I was hyper-vigilant about paying attention to my 'inner Splenic Authority / response' (I am a Projector with a Splenic response in Human Design), I was told how I should listen to something and apply it to what I was attempting to succeed in. All was great... until I opened the audio/video link and a 'Generator,' I am almost positive, was showing how to accomplish a task to find clients that would be interested in what I do.
My chest and throat constricted. I pulled at my tank top and found my other hand across my throat trying to sooth it. I wanted to run... or cry, or both. Because 'how to be successful' in a business I believed in with my HEART and SOUL, I wasn't able to perform the tasks being asked of me.
It was brought to my attention by the same lovely being that was trying to help me, and sent me the link, "You created your website in a weekend! These guys said... (something about not spending weeks on a website right now). She brought to my attention all the visuals I do, etc., so this should be easy, right?
No. No. NO! Because I lose so much energy from being put in a box, I never belonged in!  Beware all Projectors or Types, don't try to do what you didn't come too. I can stand with (Generator or Manifesting Generator) and brainstorm, come up with a zillion solutions and ideas, but don't make me carry them out unless it is  one of the creative aspect --that's your job, not mine!

I knew there was a really good reason I came into this world with a so-called disability; “dyslexia” which was my clue, not a handicap. I came as a creative, not a detail or numbers person.

(What happened internally? I felt like a failure! I questioned what was wrong with me. Why had I sold dozens of these incredible, life, health, awakening, and planetary changing Scalar Technologies last year and this year I was dying? BURNOUT--doing it alone depleted my spirit!)


 I now understand beyond reason or the mind, for the directions I was being given may be how most of the world works (except Projector in Human Design), but it is completely WRONG!!! for Projectors.

Everything I have done exceptionally well, was because 'IT WAS FUN!' The catch - Once I went it ALONE for too long, my energy and drive vanished. I began to feel like I was being strangled and my life-force was draining. NO joke. (In fact, I was emotionally and energetically.) Every project or company I believed in, started with a thrust of energy driven by an inner 'Splenic' knowing. Fun! Fun! Fun! and I did really well... until I became depleted; physically, mentally, and emotionally.

It is not about, can I trust this person or not. It has nothing to do with trusting or not trusting another! The Question is, can I trust myself based on my Inner Authority? When I don’t, it is not anyone else’s fault. It is mine. We must each learn to trust our Authority! Our Design.

(if you don’t know yours shoot me an email and I will give you your Type, and Inner Authority based on birth info including time, place.)

PROJECTORS need Generators and Manifesting Generators. And whether or not Generators or Manifesting Generators believe they need Projectors, They Do!

Although this is important, So much of the popular success advice is not correct for us as Projectors. It’s like trying to get advice on how to physically implement something creative from someone that doesn’t have a creative bone in their body and just recently read a book. We may pick up a few general things, but most of it will be useless and even counter-productive!

PROJECTORS! Must know this about themselves. Have I heard it a million times? Yes. But until today I didn't understand the 'why.' Listen to this simple explanation. Projectors without a 'tribe,' without a supportive community with daily interaction, loose their visionary drive. They are depleted when going it alone.

Truly trusting my splenic impulses has NEVER lead me wrong. Not one time. It has always guided me in a way that was harmonious and pointed me in the direction of the wisest, most intuitive choice. Every time I’ve ignored or overruled my Splenic Authority with logic – I’ve regretted it. Unfortunately, I have often allowed another to dangle the proverbial carrot in front of me when something isn’t working with a promise to change, and my trusting them, not myself, my Splenic Authority. I have wasted a lot of time and made bad and often, expensive choices.

We are continually fed the go-getter concepts where we have to “Get out there and make something of yourself!” until you are choking. If you want something, you need to make it happen right? No, and this is the problem, this doesn’t work for us Projectors.
Each time I listened to another’s way of operating; it’s resulted in frustration and disappointment. I begin to feel the bitterness and even self-contempt.

Every extraordinary success, on all levels, financially, emotionally, Spiritually, and physically, came about by waiting for the correct invitation by those that recognized my gifts.

Audio Links are sections from the talents of Randy Richmond (passed away 2017-God-speed-lovely being), the voice of Angelica Christi, Martin from Hawaii

Below, the 'Abstract' or the 'logic' vs, just do it! Projectors are 'just do it' people.

We have been trained since childhood to view reality in a Newtonian linear fashion using logic to reach a decision. Projectors are non-linear beings operating in a non-linear quantum reality of infinite variables, and this honestly isn’t the case. Take your thumb and forefinger and rest them on top of each other. The problem always rests on the solution, and because the problem didn’t exist until the answer was already present, there is no searching or struggle. Logic is a valid and useful tool for many things, but we have a deeper intuitive connection with reality.

We Are Learning to Fly; That Doesn't Mean We Don't Crash!

I have been blessed as a seer, yet that doesn't mean my journey is easy. Once I stepped onto the path, I discovered incredible bliss, oneness, the astounding highs, and tearful gratitude. And there came moments when the dark shadows cast such a wide net, that I couldn't see the light, and I didn't know if I wanted to go on.
The thing is, this is the quest we each came to partake in sooner or later, and it is easy to see the next steps of another's but to see our own is the golden ring. It is what we came to know. It is why we are here.

I may have been blessed being born as a seer, but know this, I trip on my own stuff more often than I would like to admit.
But that doesn't stop me. I pick myself up and dust off my knees, check the thoughts of my wounded ego and carry on.

I know so many beautiful Souls that came to this planet with an enormous tool-bag of splendid gifts, and yet forget and let the little box of challenges we brought on our quest for wholeness / Reunion consume us.

Just remember, you aren't alone! Most of us set high goals for ourselves, so when you go on facebook, or twitter, or Instagram, know this, all the 'perfect lives' you may see stream across your page have their dark and challenging times to overcome also. And if they didn't, there isn't much point of being on this planet. Every challenging and worthwhile journey has potholes in the road. Put on your golden cloak of light, don't be shy about asking your Angels and guides for help. Gather hands and carry on.

This journey was not meant to go alone.

With Incredible Power Comes Great Responsibility!

With incredible power comes great responsibility! And each of us came into this world with the ability to create any world we desired.
Yes! We are that powerful, although we have forgotten that every step we take, every word we speak, every energy we feel, creates our outer world; and that includes either the delight or turmoil we feel within. Most have forgotten just how powerful they are because coming into a world filled with blame, victim-hood, greed, and desperation make it hard to remember.
Do you want to stay at lower energy levels or move to new heights?
It’s your choice. Your world becomes what you attract; the lower energy levels draw experiences and consciousness that don’t support your highest potential. Each of us is responsible for our state of being in every moment; it is never about someone or something else.

Our job is to observe the lower energy levels that reinforce the world we don’t want and choose the energy patterns of the world we do want.
Your thoughts are a self-perpetuating cycle that will send you upward or downward creating a world that matches the exact vibrations of energy you are emanating.
I am not suggesting you stick your head in the sand! Be conscious of your world around you—it is your creation on every level; consciously or unconsciously taken on. As with each perceived darkness in another, there is a lesson within about yourself; or you would not have judged them. Seriously think about if you want to reinforce the shadow side of self, or be compassionate and see what you can do to contribute to positive change—don’t add to the problem with the negative!

Yes, sometimes I find my mind running with a negative vibe, but I catch myself and then put twice as much energy into positive joy, and love to offset my error.

Become clear about the connection between your vibrations and the life dramas it creates for you to live out. Your energy is both your doorway and your protective gatekeeper.
We are always venerable to dark powers, and it is your responsibility to not to allow them entrance. Allow them to pass like a cloud in the sky. The sky can be seen as the observer and does not attach itself to ‘become the cloud’ as with you; you are not the event or energy so unless it supports your highest good, let it pass. Wish it well!
.
When you are balanced, and heart focused, your life will reflect increasingly positive experiences, and you will feel more uplifted each day. The more we focus on the positive and send love to everything (Trump is a good example) you will feel the sting of negative thoughts much quicker. Don’t let them pass, shift them to notions of goodness. With same feelings come similar attractions of energy--are you sure you want anything in your world but the most profound goodness?

Please don’t keep repeating that which adds to a painful life; heal the negative by loving it so dearly it disincarnates. The way to end this vicious cycle of adverse events is to become clear about what you do want.
The more positive you become, the more your heart is in gratitude, (no matter what, and I mean that! NO MATTER WHAT--and I speak from experience!) your circumstances change to match the new vibration you are attracting.
The more proficient you get, (meditating on joy and gratitude quickens the process for me) the more beautiful your life gets--and stress-free!
After a while, you can’t understand what others that are negative are so upset about. So remember, don’t open the door on the negative thought forms. Don’t become arrogant, (big negative energy pull), become more empathic and loving.

Warning:
The vibration of the planet is accelerating, and what this means is that your thoughts are creating instantaneous manifestations into your reality; positive or negative.  Attune yourself to the sweetness of your breath and Heart love as one, and watch how quickly your thoughts become your reality.
The heart center is where Your timeless connection with Source resides.

 Now watch the energy to attract a beautiful life!

Love and Hugs,

Angelica

 

--Thank you Maryanne for your question--sorry you had to PM me, I will find out how messages can be added here. Hopefully this helps!

SIMPLE WAY ON HOW TO SHIFT YOUR ENERGY

Breathe deeply into the heart center and detach your focus from the low energy circumstances. Feel the energy of light filling you as well as unconditional love. Allow both to wash throughout your being. Remember this feeling so you will recognize when you are not in that state. Return to your breathe and remember who you divinely are. You will be able to shift your energy at any time. Soon you will no longer manifest negativity into your field.

Take conscious command of the moment, regardless of what is going on. When one is obvious what one wants from another, it will guarantee that the desired outcome will not be manifested.

Again, Remember, You are the powerful creator, that can shift the energy. Your breath, positive feelings, and your heart are the keys. Project the outcome you want!
You will reach a point that the negative will no longer rule you. There are no victims. Understand this. Coming from an imbalanced state creates a self-perpetuated downward spiral. To break a pattern of negative, be mindful of your words!

A negative situation may well be the celestial gateway to the shift of consciousness that will lead you to your life’s work.
 Don’t dwell on what is lacking, but regard those situations with gratitude as they will pave the way for a shift in consciousness to put you in a position to manifest exactly what you want, and came into this lifetime to do.