Today, I FINALLY GOT IT! WOW, That took me a very l-o-n-g time!
Something happened today and because I was hyper-vigilant about paying attention to my 'inner Splenic Authority / response' (I am a Projector with a Splenic response in Human Design), I was told how I should listen to something and apply it to what I was attempting to succeed in. All was great... until I opened the audio/video link and a 'Generator,' I am almost positive, was showing how to accomplish a task to find clients that would be interested in what I do.
My chest and throat constricted. I pulled at my tank top and found my other hand across my throat trying to sooth it. I wanted to run... or cry, or both. Because 'how to be successful' in a business I believed in with my HEART and SOUL, I wasn't able to perform the tasks being asked of me.
It was brought to my attention by the same lovely being that was trying to help me, and sent me the link, "You created your website in a weekend! These guys said... (something about not spending weeks on a website right now). She brought to my attention all the visuals I do, etc., so this should be easy, right?
No. No. NO! Because I lose so much energy from being put in a box, I never belonged in! Beware all Projectors or Types, don't try to do what you didn't come too. I can stand with (Generator or Manifesting Generator) and brainstorm, come up with a zillion solutions and ideas, but don't make me carry them out unless it is one of the creative aspect --that's your job, not mine!
(What happened internally? I felt like a failure! I questioned what was wrong with me. Why had I sold dozens of these incredible, life, health, awakening, and planetary changing Scalar Technologies last year and this year I was dying? BURNOUT--doing it alone depleted my spirit!)
I now understand beyond reason or the mind, for the directions I was being given may be how most of the world works (except Projector in Human Design), but it is completely WRONG!!! for Projectors.
Everything I have done exceptionally well, was because 'IT WAS FUN!' The catch - Once I went it ALONE for too long, my energy and drive vanished. I began to feel like I was being strangled and my life-force was draining. NO joke. (In fact, I was emotionally and energetically.) Every project or company I believed in, started with a thrust of energy driven by an inner 'Splenic' knowing. Fun! Fun! Fun! and I did really well... until I became depleted; physically, mentally, and emotionally.
PROJECTORS need Generators and Manifesting Generators. And whether or not Generators or Manifesting Generators believe they need Projectors, They Do!
PROJECTORS! Must know this about themselves. Have I heard it a million times? Yes. But until today I didn't understand the 'why.' Listen to this simple explanation. Projectors without a 'tribe,' without a supportive community with daily interaction, loose their visionary drive. They are depleted when going it alone.
Audio Links are sections from the talents of Randy Richmond (passed away 2017-God-speed-lovely being), the voice of Angelica Christi, Martin from Hawaii
Below, the 'Abstract' or the 'logic' vs, just do it! Projectors are 'just do it' people.